A little confused

I sat watching the movie, it was one of those feel good movies and I went back to one of the best moments of my life. I remember when I saw the words "Congradulations from Rotary Yo..." and that was all I read before my life change forever. I would be living in another country for a year. That was the best feeling I've ever felt, when you finally get something you've always wanted. I just jumped up and down and cryed.
So adjusting isnt going as well as I had hoped it would (nothing hardly ever does) but just the same its ok. Seems everyone knows that Im tattooed and pierced, or that I almost died. Theres moments when being back isnt so bad then theres times like when someones trying to explain how to play horse shoes where I just think "holy shit Im in Missouri" yea so im gonna go though.

Im baaaack

So it seems I finally came back, and I can honestly say that coming back was one of the hardest things I will ever do. Just the same though Im adjusting and its going ok so far, mom and I went car shopping yesterday and that was ok. I know I only got back friday night but it feels like I have been back here forever so I guess thts the way it goes. Well going to lunch with grandama and I shall try and write soon. Buenas suerte para todos.

Then there was three

Hey all I got three days left and any more Im not feeling anything at all. Yea Im sad but whatever. I almost drownd in the Ocean last weekend... that was fun lol. dude last weekend kicked ass, this house was AMAZING. It had a pool and like five maids it was just amazing. Fernanda wasnt acting so much like herself, not sure why. So I started packing today and I'm washing ALL my laundry which may very well take forever. So Im finally ending things and it feels really weird that its all over. Well not yet but Im right at the finish line and its scary as hell. This weekend rocked though it was really just alot of hanging out and none of us had to pay for anything so that was REALLY nice. We all had alot of fun though. After the whole almost drowning in the ocean thing, I was laying in bed that night and looked over at Ying "Hey Ying... Thanks for saving my ass today" Then she replied with. "I almost lost your ass" that made me laugh. I cannot imagine what I will do without her or Fernanda. Well Im going to go so I shall see all of you possible in the states

Nine months today

Fact is I left Kansas city International air port nine months ago today, but it seems like it was last week. Just the same though it is time I go home, and Im not the least bit happy about it. However I will finally admit it. Last night I couldnt sleep so I started unpacking my things (hang in there ill explain). You see I usually keep alot of my things in my bags and such, but I figure I might as well unpack everything so it can make it more managible to pack everything next week. A week and two days is all I have left and all I can really say is "Where in the hell did the time go?" Mom said something on the phone this morning about maybe me graduation early, Im not too sure what I think about that, maybe I should go back first and feel things out before making such a big decision. Just the same though its becoming more and more difficult to fight back the tears that are inevitably going to roll down my face eventually.