Sadly... me weight has slipped back into the 180 range and while I havent weighed myself since spring break I know that I'm still in that range. I went for a jog/walk through the park, and over to park street and back. It felt good. My ultimate goal is 150 by May 15th. That means I will have to kick my ass. I'm going to go for another walk again tonight, or I might go to the YMCA, it depends on when I get home. And tomorrow I know I will go to the YMCA, by Tuesday I want to be atleast 179 (assuming Im 182 now)

A-Rab

I've never really dated anyone... I mean even with all the expierence I've had en um... bed. The only people I can ever recal "dating" is Oscar, and Seth, and we never really even went on an offical date. So here I am with... we'll call him Ehm. I met him at a bar.... go figure. And we've dated a few times, then the other night I stayed at his place and nothing happened but a really good sleep and some great cuddeling and well of course making out. Well the next morning... or atleast three hours later things happen and I make a stupid choice and well things hulted... but to any of you who even read this (im not sure I have an audience anymore) we didn't have sex. Well something happened, he got pissed and I COMPLETELY understand why. So I agreed to leave him alone for the weekend but here I am a bit tipsy and I texted him and he said he's call me later, so should I believe that or not? I guess we shall see in the morning. He once said "I only call girls I like" maybe he'll call me.... I know this is dumb and I know it's only been a few weeks but I hope he calls. I really do.

Arabian Nights

He yelled at me, and told me that I don't understand... maybe I didn't. I mean it was two in the morning, I generally don't understand alot of things at that hour. I believe I said "Stop yelling at me!" and I know I wasn't using my everyday sweet voice. It was probably a little bit of angry, tired, exhausted, and worried. He was getting in a fight, in public and he was drunk. I'm sure it wouldn't take much to get him kicked out of the country if the cops got envolved. Would I miss him though? It did happen to cross my mind last night when I went to bed, not waiting for him to call me back (which he never did). On top of that... I don't want to talk to him! But then again, he does maybe need to know that I am pissed about what happened last night. So... I wasn't sure about how to tell him I was angry without telling him I was angry. It pretty much came down to me texting him saying "you were not very nice last night" and that makes me sound like im repremanding a child. Well that's all I got. Ciao